A Change Of Heart?




Some of your former political opponents do not believe what one socialist called your “change of heart”. [1]

Hence they claim you are still a neo-nazi; that what you write and have written since 2010 such as your autobiography should be treated with suspicion and not taken seriously; that unless you come out in public to attend some sort of ‘media circus’ and directly answer their questions, they will never believe you; and that you are so concerned about your reputation that you continually search ‘social media’ sites and anonymously try to not only engage with them but try to cover-up your past.

How do you react to such claims?


φημὶ ἐγώ, Μαθεῖν θέλω τὰ ὄντα καὶ νοῆσαι τὴν τούτων φύσιν καὶ γνῶναι τὸν θεόν· [2]

Such a seeking to apprehend such things is what now and for the past twenty or so years has occupied me. As for trying to cover-up my past almost everything I wrote during my neo-nazi decades and my decade as a Muslim is archived somewhere. In the case of my neo-nazi decades by what used to be called ‘Special Branch’ as I learned following my arrest by them in 1998, and also archived on the ‘world-wide web’. In the case of my decade as a Muslim an archive of my Muslim writings also exists on the ‘world-wide web’.

Therefore, any attempt by me or by anyone to ‘cover-up’ my past would be pointless. In addition, I have no desire whatsoever to do so since what exists documents my mistakes, failings, extremism, and arrogance which I want those who may be interested to know, and which acknowledgment of my past by me led to that ‘change of heart’. One person has used such archives to document my extremism and the weltanschauung I developed after my rejection of that extremism. [3]

As for what they or others claim or believe about me now and the past, it is their burden howsoever brought-into-being, howsoever nurtured and howsoever it might be described by them or by others. Occupied by the aforementioned seeking, I am now too near death, too wearied by my own hubris and acknowledgment of it, too saddened by how so much suffering is still caused despite our human culture of pathei-mathos, to be concerned about what others claim or believe about me let alone try to change anyone’s beliefs or attitudes by engaging with them in whatever way.

[1] 2012 article: Myatt Has A Change of Heart

[2] Poemandres, 3. “I answered that I seek to learn what is real, to apprehend the physis of beings, and to have knowledge of theos.” Myatt, Corpus Hermeticum: Eight Tractates.

[3] A National-Socialist Ideologue.

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